if this goes well maybe i can cross two things out of my
“things i want to gonna do before i die” list. haha.
wish me luck.
May 28, 2009
i have an idea.
May 26, 2009
i thought i was gonna die.
..okay, maybe i exaggerate it a bit too much but seriously though, i did though i was gonna die. definitely the worst night of my life so far.
so, i’ve been sick these couple days. nothing serious though, just sore throat, flu, mild fever, and cough. i could say i’m familiar with those all because i seem to be getting those a lot. anyway, yesterday was a little bit different though.
i couldn’t sleep. i had trouble breathing normally i had to breathe through my mouth. my body felt like it was burning i could swear my feet was on fire. oh, and i began hearing voices. it was scary.
i tried fixing my pillow and blanket to help make myself feel better but it didn’t help. in fact, i felt worse. so i got out of my bed, went to the dining room, and prepared myself a loaf of bread with chocolate topping and a glass of water. i’m not even sure myself why i did that but that’s what i did, out of nowhere. i sat there quietly, ate my bread, drank my water, and went back to bed after.
i felt a little bit better but not for long. i curled in my bed, blanket covering my whole body, and then… i started praying. …yea, i just prayed. and prayed, and prayed, and prayed, and somehow i managed to fall asleep.
i woke up this morning, feeling much, much, much better than last night. apparently i’m not dead yet. and i’m so thankful for that.
May 25, 2009
Evgeny Kissin – Rachmaninoff Piano Concerto No.2 I. Moderato
nothing beats listening to classical music when i’m sick.
it’s my own personal therapy.
wonderful pianist, beautiful song.
May 23, 2009
Bad day.
You had a bad day
You’ve seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
May 21, 2009
Religion and science.
i always see religion and science as two siblings helping each other out to get to the same end. it maybe is not the perfect analogy to describe their relationship as how i see it, but i think it’s close enough. humans are so divided into believing religion and believing science they forget that they actually can believe in both.
there are still some things that science can’t prove, and for that there’s religion. human created religion to fill the void within them, which i assume the void got something to do with things human finds no explanation for it. with the passing of time, human then discovered science which also help them filling the void by giving an explanation for it. that’s why i think science and religion actually complements each other. they maybe doing it in a different way but they’re filling that void within.
that why i believe religion and science are not two clashing side fighting each other with their weapon of faith and logic. they’re comrade. i’ll try to put it this way:
it’s in our nature to sought knowledge and with that we question everything. human is just a single drop, if not less, in this vast ocean we call universe, the ‘everything’, and even in that single drop so much knowledge are contained we’re not even done knowing it all. we still haven’t found a way to cure cancer, we’re still figuring out how people can actually have different sexual orientation, and we’re just this one teeny tiny part of this thing we call universe. can you imagine how much more are out there?
then it suddenly came to human’s mind:
- what contained this whole limitless everything? if it’s limitless then is it really possible to contain it?
- how did it came to existence? there must have been nothing in the beginning so how did it transformed into everything?
- why did it exist? just because?
- for what purpose did it exist?
- WHO made it exist? WHO arranged all those pieces? did it just exist? but is it really possible for something of no existence came to existence all by itself? if so, then how? why? for what?
on and on it goes until at one point we settled for an ‘answer’: religion along with the concept of God. but then, human is not pleased by an ‘answer’ and so they embark on a quest to find the real answer.
i believe religion by no means is a tool invented to silence human for questioning everything, to brainwash and lead human into not thinking and just accepting. i actually see it as an encouragement, a guidance, in our quest to find the answer of the beginning.
i see religion as a reminder, to remind human about how we’re so small and there are still so many things to be discovered. it reminds human to not be arrogant just because we discover something more because many are still undiscovered.
we want to know about everything yet we don’t even know what is everything. we’re just one of the species inhabited one of the planet in one of the solar system in this universe. we’re nothing. yet even in our nothingness we are so many things.
maybe later on i don’t know when science will be able to unravel everything about this universe and that’s gonna be the end of our quest but until that time come, i believe humanity still needs religion to guide them all the way to the end.
i’m not really a religious person but i do believe in God and the more science able to prove what religion previously said, then more i believe in God. thank you God for giving me this kind of faith.
Allahu Akbar.